really? a review of my zine goals for 2020 + ZINE GOALS FOR 2020?

long time no blog blah blah blah, i think everyone knows already how much 2020 fucked with everyone’s plans for the year. but here’s a gif for it anyway:
i’m trying to have a tradition of making zine plans/goals every year and then reviewing them when the next year starts so even though it’s low key pointless for 2020, let’s have a look at them goals i had:

📌 FINISH THE NON-BINARY ZINE
📌 FINISH THE FAITH THE VAMPIRE SLAYER FANZINE
📌 FINISH THE BIKINI KILL FANZINE
📌 START OFFERING ZINE PRINTING SERVICES
📌 DO MORE LOCAL ZINE THINGS
📌 MAKE AT LEAST 3 ZINES

obviously i managed to follow through on NONE OF THEM. though i guess i was low key close until the shit hit the personal fan at the end of the summer. at that point i had made 2 perzines (your pretty face is going straight to hell #27 and bat habitat #28) and both the non-binary zine and the faith fanzine were Almost Done. but then my mum was diagnosed with cancer in july, and by september she was D Y I N G and i had to rush home to finland see her one more time and then help my dad with funeral stuff and grieve and all that. i’ve been writing a zine about the trip, even started while out there because it helped process stuff, but obviously i haven’t finished it because it’s hard. i’ve barely touched it since i got back in the beginning of november, just in time for lockdown 2.0.

anyway it’s 2021 and it’s supposedly a fresh new year, except by the looks of it, it’s just the same old bullshit until whenever. it’s almost like january 1st isn’t a magical fresh new page, and time is meaningless. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but i’m gonna set myself some 2021 zine goals anyway, because it’s a vague reminder of what i want to do even if i end up Not Doing Any Of it, and even if it’s more or less the repeat of last years goals with extras

📌 FINISH THE FINLAND GRIEF ZINE

i believe i can do this even though it’s tough. i already have over 10 000 words, and i’m only half way through the trip, but as i mentioned i haven’t really touched it since i got back, and editing all this is going to be a nightmare because of course i can’t remember what i’ve already said. i’m not looking forward to it, but it’s important. and i have a lot of notes in my bullet journal. but i’m going to take my time i guess.

📌 FINISH THE NON-BINARY ZINE

lol i actually wrote ” this is my ‘safe’ goal because i know for a fact i am going to do this” under this goal last year :DDDDDD i mean it is so close to being finished. i could just decide it’s finished but i think it’s missing something still. like i need resources to include and i have ~nothing~ solid. and i’m scared of putting it out there while it’s ~missing something~. i’m just full of excuses and i need to STOP THAT. i would love to say it’s my safe goal and i know For A Fact i am going to do this, but we all know how 2020 went, so.. we’ll see?

📌 FINISH THE FAITH THE VAMPIRE SLAYER FANZINE

god this is also SO CLOSE TO DONE. it literally needs a couple more illustrations and i need to write intro + my piece but Y E A H. someone kick my butt in gear, and if you would like to draw something for this, PLEASE SLIDE IN MY DM’S OR INBOX OR SOMETHING.

📌 FINISH THE BIKINI KILL FANZINE

i’m low key tempted to abandon this zine but the couple of submissions i’ve had are so awesome i don’t have the heart to abandone this project because they shouldn’t go to waste.

📌 MAKE A VAMPIRE HAG BIRTHDAY ZINE
📌 SORT OUT A PATREON WITH REWARDS AND SHIT

i’ve had a patreon account for a while but i haven’t really posted about it because i need to figure out some rewards. i was thinking stickers i print at home but.. i mean i got some sample sticker papers from A4labels.com back in june when i got some round & heart shaped sticker sheets for address labels / thank you stickers, but i haven’t got around to even making test stickers. i really need to do that. would you like monthly stickers from me? and how much would you pay for that priviledge?

📌 START OFFERING ZINE PRINTING SERVICES

as i said last year, i need to figure out pricing etc. and i’m trash. sorry. hopefully i can do a test project with a pal soon.

📌 DO MORE ONLINE ZINE EVENTS

i think i did online glasgow zine fest and online swansea zine fest last year, because i was supposed to table at both events. but most of the other online zine fests, somehow i only found out about most of them when it was too late to sign up and the ones i did manage to sign up for… well, life got in the way. and i’ve been so low on distro stock it seemed pointless to promo 🙁 some of it has also been v confusing. but i’m signed up for online glasgow zine fest again, let’s do this! i’m getting settled in now?

📌 MAKE AT LEAST 2 ZINES

last year i wanted to “make at least 3 zines (not including the compilation zines)” but i’m gonna go for at least 2 zines INCLUDING compilation zine because i want to tick at least one thing off this list. i think i can do two zines, at least (famous last words?)

i know i know i know the list is Much Longer than last year, and i was going to be gentler to myself, but i also feel much better when i’m doing things. knitting is a coping mechanism for me. and i’ve also taken up sewing and embroidery, and i want to do more of everything. i’m planning to treat the goals as a reminder list rather than a strict to do list? idk. i like making lists. i also have a bunch of arts and crafts goals / things i want to do but that might be a different post. or not.. i kind of need those goals to stay vague for now. like sew X amount of thing(s) per X amount of time, use up my yarn stash and don’t buy more random yarn just cos you’re feeling _something_ in poundland. maybe i should make one of those Make Nine lists? who knows.